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Apr. 8th, 2009 08:43 am Wonderful Way to Start the Day!

/sarcasm

I love it when Crystal tells me to be outside by 7:40am in the morning then doesn't get there to pick me up until after 8 most days.

I ALSO love it when I call around 7:40 to see if she's here yet or if I can avoid standing in the cold 20+ minutes, then she bitches at me 'Amber, I'm dropping off my kids, ALRIGHT? I'll get there when I get there.'

Uh, excuuuuuse ME princess, I appreciate you picking me up everyday for work since I'm on the way, but it's just good manners when someone stands outside waiting for you in the elements to either be close to on time or let them check in with you to see if you're close so they don't have to stand outside in the elements. Ktnxbai. STFU.

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Feb. 28th, 2009 04:48 pm Writer's Block: AKA

AKA
What's the story behind your username?


Haha, well, Cesna Rose has been my 'pen name' since I was fourteen. <_< Cesna being some random constellation I heard about in eight grade... And I tagged Rose on there for no reason, haha.

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Jan. 4th, 2009 02:42 pm Planning a vacation

o: To Pennsylvania! :D

'But Amber, what on Earth would you be going to such a random place for?'

Well, for starters, I've never been further east in the USA than AR. Which is lame.

Two... Lucca is there! :D Squee.

I love being an adult and having a job and having money for such things. ^^

I'm thinking March. Though I have to carefully plan, since I would be leaving Crystal alone at work for the time I'm gone... so it has to be during a slow time at work... and also working with Lucca's schedule..... D: Maybe there will be a third person in our department by then...

*shrugs* I'm excited, either way. ^^

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Jan. 1st, 2009 06:22 pm Since no one reads this anymore...

It'll be safe for me to get some stuff out.

*deep sigh out*

I am really sick of my dad trying to control me and my sister.

Really. Friggen. Sick of it.

I just screamed my lungs out at him, and my voice has been fading over the past few days. I just blew it out. I have a job where I do telephones all day. Not good. Grr.

He just officially kicked her out. >:/ And I was trying to comfort her and give her advice. When he gets on the phone, after having EAVESDROPPED on the whole conversation, and tells her 'You're listening to Amber, look at where SHE'S at in life, she's an awful person to take advice from unless you wanna end up like her, she's not exactly a prime example of the life you want to live blah blah blah, that advice is crappy anyway.'

The advice where I tell her it'll be okay, just cling to God, hold His hand, trust Him, and He'll never lie or forsake you? Oh yeah, what SHITTY advice. GOD, dad, I'm such an idiot.

Oh, wait a minute! That's YOU I'm thinking of! Not ME.

I'm sick of him acting like his voice is so much more worthy of being heard. Talking over me. Not listening. His opinion is the only one that exists. There are not other perspectives than his. And n other paths to take in life other than the one that he wants for you.

Yeah, I'm making $14 dollars an hour, have plenty of money to throw in saving every month, live in a luxury apartment complex, and have no problem paying all my bills, have lots of friends, and am very happy. Oooooh yeah. I'm in SUCH a bad place in life. Woe is me. I can't afford a mansion. HELL, I'm bad off. If only I had a four year degree! THEN my life would be complete!

I could punch my dad right in his arrogant face right now. really.

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Jul. 22nd, 2008 04:02 pm ...

I'm really sorry.

Super sorry.

I... need to get over myself, too.

Life is life and shouldn't get in the way of friends. Best friends.

Doesn't matter how I feel, it's what I do that matters.

Especially when it comes to you.

I hope you can forgive me.

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May. 29th, 2008 11:49 am Crossroads and Baggage

Ah, the wise words of Alanis never fail to impressCollapse )

I know, it's been forever since I posted a real update.

Moved out of my parents house almost a year ago, and in with Kelly's parents. That's been... interesting. I'm highly grateful to them for taking me in, and paying for my school. Thanks to them, I've got a huge head start on my life with my super fancy AA I have.

I'm working in graphic design now. Actually... I'm at work right now on lunch. I've got my own iMac to make art on.

www.powerpointsermons.com is the company I work for. A lot of the stuff on the spanish section of the site is what I do for them.

I'm in love, and hey, he actually loves me back. If you know me on facebook, you might already know this. His name is Riley and he's... just super amazing. To put it lightly. And super hot. And... super loves me. I've never felt anything like it.

Moving into 'my own' place in Plano this weekend. By 'my own' place, I mean I'm renting out a room in a house. Ahhh, the full ability to make my own decisions, here I come!

I wrecked my car beyond repair. Might post pictures later. So now I carpool to work and am going to get a bike for grocery shopping.

I'll try to post pictures of me and Riley later. Later today? Prolly not. Later this week? Maybe. Still figuring stuff out with getting the pics of me and him. Uhhh, I'm listed on facebook as being in a relationship with him, go there if you really can't wait to see pics of him XD

Getting tired of guys jumping all over me and me having to beat them off. I have a boyfriend, and more often than not, they have a girlfriend/fiancee/wife, OF COURSE I DON'T WANNA DO ANYTHING WITH YOU. >_<

So with the exceptions of no car, cool job, boyfriend, and own place? Life isn't much different.

Love you guys.

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Feb. 11th, 2008 08:11 am BTW, hello.

I know it's been forever, but I'm going to do some complaining: (Hey, that IS what LJ's for, right?)

I'm tired of boys coming in flocks or not at all.

Especially when every choice has a fatal flaw.

Some of them, more than one.

I'm tired of old stalkers coming back to haunt me.

I'm tired of this guy older than my dad trying to start a relationship with me.

I'm tired of a man who I JUST got over, trying to say stupid crap like 'I guess I didn't really realize how I felt about you until ______, guess it's too late now, huh, now that you've moved on...but hey, want to eat out at lunch anyway?'.

I'm tired of freaking awesome guys that feel the same way about you as you do them (even if you're scared to let them know it), living a billion miles away.

I'm also tired of accidentally rhyming.

I need to be a nun.

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Nov. 29th, 2007 09:34 pm Okay, here's the deal:

I'm really, really stupid.

REALLY, *REALLY* STUPID.

I mean, my brain knows better than this, but...

I've been totally blown out of the water by this random guy that IMed me last night, on a Christian Dating site. Earlier that day, I was talking to a guy in Wylie that I was interested in meeting (to the point I called Kelly about it, since I haven't met any new guys in a long ass time), but then along comes a Mr. Scott around nine last night.

I normally don't get into the whole internet romance thing, but...Collapse )

Current Location: home
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Apr. 20th, 2007 04:02 pm As if yesterday wasn't enough...

I just went through the most AGGRIVATING situation of my life:

A stupid fender-bender.

Nothing was even bent. She hit ME, then wants MY insurance because my PAINT is on her BUMPER.

*s'plode*

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Apr. 19th, 2007 09:34 pm .

I might have diabetes.

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